A letter to my Father in Heaven. Dear Papa, it's been years
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A letter to my Father in Heaven- Dear Papa, it’s been years

This is A letter to my Father in Heaven I wrote during one of those days I’ve longed to be with him. Dear Papa, I dreamed about you; it’s been years, and missing you every day and forever. My childhood memories with you will always be the sweetest, favorite, and most beautiful for me, and I’ll never forget them. So beautiful that it breaks my heart. All this time, I always have thought about you.

Estimated reading time: 4 minutes

A letter to my Father in Heaven: Hi, is it okay if I missed you so much?

Papa, It’s been years. I was young and still didn’t know much about how it was hard to lose a father like you when you passed away, but I knew emotions were genuine and deep. I felt sad and devastated when you weren’t by my side anymore. Since the day you’re gone, there has never been a day that I didn’t think about you. You’re always in my heart, and your memories never fade away.

Whenever I hear the local train’s sound, I think of you. You used to work for the company operating the trains, and sometimes, you took me with you when I was a kid. And I loved it so much that when mum didn’t take me, I’d cry my eyes like a baby. You worked the whole day while I played under the scorching sun.

I miss you so much and remember you so well- your sweet, warm, and loving face. It melts my heart knowing you’re my father. You never complained about how difficult it to be in the field with little rest. You were hardworking, yet you wore a great smile when you picked me up. I was always excited to come to meet you and greet you with a sweet kiss that you never resisted.

I was always enthusiastic about narrating how you bought me a Barbie doll to buy at a local market behind our small home space. And my unforgettable vacation with you in Manila. The good old days. You were such a great, fantastic father.

Looking back, it feels like it was just yesterday. By the way, I moved to a new city.

Tears fill my eyes whenever I tell my friends about my father, who’s now in heaven, so I decided to write down all my feelings in a letter.

A letter to my Father in Heaven: Hi, I dreamed about you up there.

Hi, Papa; I dreamed and have been dreaming about you lately. In my dream, I was doing the laundry with mom when suddenly, I received a message from someone saying, “Your dad is alive; he’s at the hospital.” Excited, and told mom right away about the news.

“Dad is alive but he’s sick and he needs us! He’s at the hospital! Let’s hurry, mom, let’s visit dad soon!

Mom was upset. She was trying to make me realize that you were gone. She insisted you were not there anymore and that you’d been in heaven. I didn’t want to believe her.

She said, “Wake up; you’re dreaming!”

“Dad is alive and he needs us! I want to see him!”

 I screamed and screamed until my throat hurt.

And then I woke up with a heavy heart and returned to my senses. I felt gloomy for the rest of the day; I couldn’t focus on anything. In the back of my mind, I wanted to know the meaning behind that dream. But as the hours passed by, it actually didn’t matter because what was most important was I saw you there in my dream.

Father, would you also send me a letter from heaven? Do you think God would allow it?

Growing up, I constantly wondered if you were still here. How and what would I have been now? Would I be the same little girl you cared so much for, or would I have been fiercer than ever before? Either way, I want you to know that I’m grown up now and that you’ll be proud of me. I’m sure you will be.

I will never forget you, Papa

I will never forget the life lessons you taught me, even at a young age, and all the beautiful memories that came with it.

You may be unable to read this letter I wrote for you, Father, but I know you’re happy now in heaven, your truly happy place.

On the other hand, things have immensely changed; dear Papa—tons of changes. Everything looks different now. I wished you witnessed how we grew up, how we, from adorable little kids you used to ride at your back, became mature and independent daughters and sons you wanted us to be. We will never forget your life’s lessons and pieces of advice that led us to where we are right now. I wish you were here. And please know that you shouldn’t worry; we’re all doing okay.

I miss you, Papa. We miss you so much. We always think about you, and I hope my better half will be like you—kind, loving, thoughtful, and most of all, a person who loves unconditionally. You were terrific, Papa. You were my real superhero, the first man I loved profoundly.

Anyway, the next time I write you a letter, father in heaven, I will probably have a cute baby already. Haha. I’m kidding. No, I’m not kidding; just trying to make you laugh up there.

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You are forever in my heart, Papa

I know that it has been years since you’re gone. But please know that you are forever in my heart, always have been, and always will be.

Love always,

your daughter

Born, raised, and forever loyal to the Philippines. Catherine is a teacher and a BA in Mass Communication graduate who loves anything child-friendly. She loves writing in her diary every day and is in love with beaches, books, Safari, and Tokyo. Her ultimate dream destinations are Madagascar, Mongolia, and Hawaii. Check out her van camping adventures in Europe at vancampingguide.com.

9 Comments

  • Suruchi

    Sad for your loss. I really know and can very well understand the importance of a father in daughter’s life. He is always her first love and the biggest support in life. I am sure your Dad will be happy seeing you a brave and happy person now.

  • Marge

    I’m sorry that I wasn’t able to meet your father. He seems like a wonderful person, a great father. I can relate to this post because as you know, my father is already gone too. I cannot tell for sure if there is an afterlife but I truly wish that there is, just to have a chance to see our departed loved ones again.

  • neha

    I am so sad for your loss dear. No one in the world can replace our parents.He sounds like such a wonderful person. A father that every daughter will like to have

  • Erica

    I lost my dad 3 years ago. I also missed him these days. Like you I wonder how it’s like if he were still alive. But things like these happen… happy fathers day to our great dads!!!

  • Louiela Ann Analista

    A touching letter and story… 15 years has been long gone past but by reading this letter it shows you kept your memories in your heart… He may not be physically present anymore but for sure, you have an angel looking after you from heaven…

  • Indrani

    Very touching. I remember my mother the same way.
    Oh! Why do they go away leaving us lonely and sad!

  • Cez Prieto

    I lost my father last December 2016 and it was so heartbreaking. My heart is with you. Thank you for sharing your story.

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