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A letter to my Father in Heaven. Dear Papa, it's been years
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A letter to my Father in Heaven. Dear Papa, it’s been years.

I dreamed about you, Papa; it’s been years and missing you forever. My childhood memories with you will always be the sweetest, my most favourite, the most beautiful for me, and I’ll never forget them. So beautifully heartbreaking. This is my letter to my Father in Heaven.

Estimated reading time: 4 minutes

I dreamed about you, Papa. It’s been years. I was young and still innocent when you passed away, but my emotions were genuine and deep. I felt sad when you weren’t by my side anymore. Since the day you’re gone, there has been never a day that I forgot about you. You’re always in my heart and your memories never fade away. I forever cherish them.

Every time I hear the sound of the local train, I think of you. You used to work for the company operating the trains and sometimes, you took me with you when I was a kid. You worked the whole day while I played the whole day under the scorching sun.

Whenever I tell my friends about my father, who’s no in heaven, tears fill my eyes, so I decided to write down all my feelings in a letter.

I’m always enthusiastic about narrating how you bought me a Barbie doll to buy at a local market behind our small home space. And my unforgettable vacations with you in Manila. The good old days. You were such a great loving father.

Looking back, it feels like it was just yesterday. By the way, I moved to a new city.

A letter to my Father in Heaven, dear Papa. Last night, I dreamed about you.

I’m sure you are, but you know what, I’ve been dreaming about you lately. In my dream, I was doing the laundry with mom when suddenly, I received a message from someone saying, “Your dad is alive; he’s at the hospital.” I got too excited and told mom right away about the news.

“Dad is alive but he’s sick and he needs us! He’s at the hospital! Let’s hurry, mom, let’s visit dad soon!

Mom was upset and was trying to make me realize that you were gone. She was insisting you’re gone and I didn’t want to believe her.

She said, “Wake up, your dad is not here anymore!” I screamed in pain and said no!

“Dad is alive and he needs us! I want to see him!”

My heart was heavy when I woke up and was feeling gloomy for the rest of the day. In my thoughts, what’s the meaning behind that dream? Most importantly, I was happy to see you there. But it wasn’t real.

Then I awoke, and my beautiful, weird and heartbreaking dream was interrupted. Looking around and getting back to my senses, I realized you were not really here; I just thought I felt your presence.

Father, would you also send me a letter from heaven?

Growing up, I constantly wondered if you were still here. How and what would have I been now? Would I be the same little girl you cared so much for, or would have I been much fiercer than ever before? Either way, I want you to know that I’m grown up now, and I know you’ll be proud of me. I’m sure you are.

I will never forget the life lessons you taught me even at a young age, Papa. And the beautiful memories that came with it.

You may not able to read this letter I wrote for you, Father, I know you’re happy now in heaven. Or in your happy place.

On the other hand, things have immensely changed; dear papa—tons of changes. Everything looks different now. I wished you witnessed how we grew up, how we, from cute little kids, became mature daughters and son you wanted us to be. We will never forget your life’s lessons and pieces of advice that led us to where we are right now. I wish you were here. Don’t worry, we’re all doing okay.

I miss you, papa. We miss you so much. We always think about you, and I hope that my better half shortly would be like you—kind, loving, thoughtful, and most of all, a person who loves unconditionally. You were amazing, papa. You were my real superhero, the first man I loved profoundly.

Anyway, the next time I write you a letter, father in heaven, I probably have a cute baby already. Haha. I’m kidding. No, I’m not kidding. Just trying to make you laugh up there.

You are and will be forever in my heart. Dear Papa, I miss you more than you ever know.

Love,

Your daughter

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A letter to my Father in Heaven. Dear Papa, it's been years.

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9 Comments

  • Suruchi
    June 10, 2017 at 08:14

    Sad for your loss. I really know and can very well understand the importance of a father in daughter’s life. He is always her first love and the biggest support in life. I am sure your Dad will be happy seeing you a brave and happy person now.

  • Marge
    June 13, 2017 at 17:07

    I’m sorry that I wasn’t able to meet your father. He seems like a wonderful person, a great father. I can relate to this post because as you know, my father is already gone too. I cannot tell for sure if there is an afterlife but I truly wish that there is, just to have a chance to see our departed loved ones again.

  • Tanya
    June 15, 2017 at 14:05

    What a touching story. Thanks for sharing such raw feelings with us.

  • neha
    June 16, 2017 at 14:34

    I am so sad for your loss dear. No one in the world can replace our parents.He sounds like such a wonderful person. A father that every daughter will like to have

  • Erica
    June 18, 2017 at 04:21

    I lost my dad 3 years ago. I also missed him these days. Like you I wonder how it’s like if he were still alive. But things like these happen… happy fathers day to our great dads!!!

  • Louiela Ann Analista
    June 29, 2017 at 12:34

    A touching letter and story… 15 years has been long gone past but by reading this letter it shows you kept your memories in your heart… He may not be physically present anymore but for sure, you have an angel looking after you from heaven…

  • Indrani
    July 1, 2017 at 04:05

    Very touching. I remember my mother the same way.
    Oh! Why do they go away leaving us lonely and sad!

  • April
    July 5, 2017 at 15:53

    This is very sad but very beautiful and touching. Dads are great!

  • Cez Prieto
    January 10, 2018 at 11:49

    I lost my father last December 2016 and it was so heartbreaking. My heart is with you. Thank you for sharing your story.

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